Grandma's Pearls

Did you know that the regions of your brain that manage smells, memories, and emotions are intertwined? In fact, scent can bring back memories that might never have been recovered without the smell to transport us back to that moment in time.

This is why I keep the pearls* my Grandpa gifted my Grandma on their wedding day and passed on to me to wear on mine, in the original container, in a box, in a plastic bag. Excessive? Maybe but I can open that box and the smell is EXACTLY my Grandma. It's more than just a perfume smell. It is… her. Her house, her baking, her sweat, her tears, her love, and her laundry soap. I have lots of her treasures but this is the only item that has her smell and I treasure it.

Our sense of smell is such a powerful tool and is often used at the end of life and can be as much for the benefit of the person dying as it is the those who are in the room with them.

What smells do you associate with a person or moment in time?

*They are not real pearls and it was never clear to me if she knew that or not, so I never said anything.

Why Held & Free?

When I read this phrase in the book Untamed by Glennon Doyle, I knew this was the name I had been looking for my End of Life Doula practice.

Navigating your own death or the death of a loved one is complex at the best of times. Every death you’ve experienced before this moment, informs how you feel, act, react, and move forward. Emotions often shift and change quickly as you introduce this new reality into your day to day life.

Most people do not enjoy discussing death and avoid it if possible. However, making plans and expressing our wishes is one of the greatest gifts we can give our loved ones left behind.

Held & Free is about empowering you to make end-of-life choices for yourself or your loved one. Held & Free is gentle guidance through difficult days with a roadmap of what the next week might look like. Held & Free is about feeling supported and safe while exploring and looking bravely into the face of uncertainty, knowing someone has your back.

As an End of Life Doula, I want you and your loved ones to feel held and well-supported, with questions responded to judgment-free. If additional support is needed, I have those resources for you. Unsure about the changes you are seeing in your loved one? I will walk you through it. There is freedom in understanding and knowledge. It empowers you and can release fear and uncertainty. I want the person who is nearing the end of their life to feel at peace, and able to gracefully leave this life, knowing all will be well, and that they have been lovingly held and are now free.